huh?

I cant sleep. I am disturbed.
Why must I force myself to sleep.
Why must i force myself to do so many things that i did not want to do and yet abandon what i had always wanted to do?

I've changed. Things hasn't changed.
Whats the point i wonder? Whats worth all the sacrifices?

I'm too soft. I need to make a stand and be more assertive.
Trying to protect and maintain so much things i wonder, so what is it really?

I ponder and think, think and ponder.
Afraid to upset this balance, expected to perform in certain manners.

Must we really restrict ourselves? Why let things control us?
Its the time and season again. I've lost myself again.
Why do I always try and put myself in control again?
Does that mean things will be secure and safe?

Where's the peace?